Its rather surprising

how some people can cast you off like a used band aid.




I'm convinced that my life will always pan out in this direction. Apparently i have no tangeble depth to my character and I will always be a fling in girls lives due to my own oblivious mindset. I will always have this stipulation.




I seem to be surrounded by perfect boyfriends and I am simply at a loss to my intrinsic core, Its unescapeable.




You ever just watch the world pass you by, frame by frame, like a film strip? and instead of you decideding your life's process, you kinda just watch it happen as if it were written in a script. As if despite every attempt you make at improving your existance you're simply toppled down as merely a faulted pawn in god's sick, benevolent plan.

Questioning of faith....

1. If we are created in God's image and are a reflection of him then that would suggest that he is a reflection of us as well. Does that mean he shares the same flaws as us? The bible showcases several examples of him showing such emotion as avarice, wrath, vengeance, jealousy, envy etc. I.e. Flooding the earth, spreading plague, killing the first born of families and so on. If God is in fact infallible and all knowing wouldn't he not share our flaws of emotion that drive us to do unethical things? The Alpha and Omega should show more integrity then that.

2. Noah built an ark, with the help of a few family and friends. This ark allegedly held not just EVERY SPECIES ON THE PLANET but TWO OF EVERY SPECIES ON THE PLANET. This includes but is not limited to giraffes, antelopes, garden snakes, chinchillas, komodo dragons, platypi, lions, tigers, polar bears, sloths, spider monkeys and so on. Not only is that inconceivable but it would be a slaughterhouse. Not only would the ark need to be larger than the Titanic but it would have to withstand a worldwide flood. The lions would be eating the antelopes, the elephants would trample everything, the rhinoceri would demolish the wooden cubbies they were assigned. Noah would be one of the first to die.

3. If we are blessed with free will how is our lives predestined? How can God know all of what is to come if we have free will? The concept of God suggest that we are merely puppets in his malicious play.

maybe more....

It's been a while...

Quite a while actually and I feel it appropriate to update this thing. A lot has happened the the last month or so. I'm now immersed in the prog band Alighieri full time and I'm booking shows for them, which is going surprisingly well. We have like 4 shows in March (too much? lol) I feel like the dynamics of the music is expansive and stretching my musical ability. Helping me grow intuitively.

Some Camera phone pic adventures!!

The turn out at our hot topic show=


Abigail Williams @ Modesto Virtual (had a heart to heart with their drummer haha)


Me showcasing my cross joint (in semblance to Pineapple Express)


Another, better look at my architectural work


Ness!!


Emarosa @ Stockton Empire Theatre


Johnny Craig from Emarosa & me (lol)


Despised Icon!!! @ Veteran's hall in Santa Cruz