Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Moved out XD

Now I can stop being a burden in my father's life.

I love the new place

It's in Hidden Lake like 2 min from my dad's.

I'm even more happy now.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Food for Thoughts ( compliments of dp)

Assuming one day you're diagnosed with cancer. You're stricken with fear and fatalism. Your optimistic doctor schedules you chemotherapy and surgery for the next coming weeks.

You go home and pray for god to heal you.

Next couple months roll about and low and behold, your tumor is gone and you were miraculously healed of the cancer.

Now was it medical science, your own immune system, or god that healed you?

Coincidentally there is a level of ambiguity to every miracle. There's usually a logical reason within our physical reality of why miracles happen, not just god.

A situation where only god could have taken action is if god healed amputees.

Science can't do that, only the infallible power of god could regenerate bone and tissue. Which he doesn't.

So there's your irrefutable evidence that god is superstition and Judaism, Christianity, and Islam might just be for shits and giggles.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Friday, December 12, 2008


I barely sleep lately, maybe 3-4 hours a night.

I barely eat too. I lost a good amount of weight from living off taco bell remnants and top ramen.

From my lack of vehicle I've come acquainted with the art of walking, I'll walk for miles some days. Sometimes with nowhere to go. It helps me think, a lot. It does get cold sometimes, but you get used to it.

Each day blurs to the next, and I just laugh at the waves as they crash on me.

But there is one person that makes it worth it....

Tuesday, December 9, 2008


So I watched the sun come up today.


Sunday, December 7, 2008

So It's official...

I'm officially kicked out of Beaches....

Maybe she was right....

Maybe it wasn't my band anymore and maybe they just needed a new bass player


oh the tangled webs we weave, catch our neighbors in, and devour them

Well gotta stay up stay positive. I do have Mike Love's new band now and they're getting pretty big shows already. Plus sad to say but Beaches kinda fell off anyways. Most people think we broke up.

Like TI said all that won't kill me will make me stronger make me tougher lolll

So Molly and I partied at Mike and Paul's last night. I think Dana and Mike finally hooked up =) I'm happy for them. Mike's a good guy and he deserves better than what he's had already. I'm becoming pretty good friends with that whole group.

Too bad Sarah Shank was there last night, that was unexpected...... and I think she fooled around with Paul. Um wow. I thought she was with Kyle still but I guess I shouldn't expect any better hahaha.

Molly and I talked for hours as she watched me slip into a drunken stupor. Then we fell asleep holding each other. She's like my new best friend and I couldn't be happier. I told her our relationship is dependent on how well the sharks do this season lolll. She says she knows they're taking the Stanley cup. She's like MAJOR sharks fan and Mike and Paul love it hahaha

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